Gravity just spun up on iTunes

Another weekend of work after an all-nighter a couple of days ago.

I'm punchy, and tired, and the matrix output slowly flowing past on my screen is literally starting to get blurry.

And Sara pops up on rotation.

I paused, quietly, and thought of faraway memories. Not because I'm tired and overworked, but because the passage of time has caused them to fade.

I'm trying to remember her smile. That first smile, the first time she said goodbye after the weekend she first said the 'L' word, in her pretty summer dress on that beautiful spring day.

I think I can see it... but I'm not really sure. I think I remember the image I was fighting to hold on to, not the actual memory. Like a photograph of a photograph... the second generation copy, with less clarity, more errors, and some detail simply gone.

I don't remember her eyes, anymore, for instance. Not from that day. Nor am I really sure what color her dress was... I have to steal that from another mental image and put it there because I "know" what is supposed to be in the image.

I don't remember her smell, I don't remember her taste, and I don't remember why it felt so good.

But I know I want to.

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Yeah. It sucks. I still miss her.